Who’s on top?

It’s a fault of mine. I can’t help it. Regardless of what state of mind I’m in, I have a distinct lake of filter between those feelings and my facial expressions. Happy Jordan is obviously happy. Angry Jordan looks really fucking annoyed. I have got to do something to develop a filter.

Last night was a good example. I attended a networking function at Hawke & Hunter. It was started up by H&H and my mate Craig McKenna. It was a nice night, overall. Pretty relaxed atmosphere. Having said that, the food was pretty bad and the speakers were more of a distraction than a help. But I like the idea and I think they’ll get better at it.

At one point Craig introduced me to a chap from Scottish Enterprise. We’re doing more and more business with high-growth companies, so Craig thought we could have a productive discussion. What a mistake. The guy was actually a complete and perfect example of a government employed tosser. I’m really glad we pay his salary.

My point, of course, is that I had trouble concealing my annoyance. I finally left. And left the event entirely.

This parallels my state of mind on the squash court. If I get down on myself, I can’t stop from getting further down. I can’t seem to let things slide off my back.

But I have to learn. So I’m starting today.

-j