Who’s on top?

It’s been an interesting six years.

A while back, I made the decision to leave music behind. It wasn’t an easy decision. For as long as I can remember music has always been a passion of mine, as well as being something I’m good at. I’ve always played. Guitar, Sax, Drums, Clarinet…whatever it was it was a pure pleasure to just play live music with other people.

The PhD almost killed me off, musically. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s a sign of aesthetic weakness or a small amount of will on my part, but at some point I just lost the pure love of music. I lost the love of being engaged in it every day. I stopped playing. I stopped writing. I stopped listening.

I’m back. Sort of. I guess I should say I’m coming back…or maybe I’m really going forward.

Over the last couple of months I’ve been thinking about music again. I’ve started working on some pieces…I’ve started playing some ideas around in my head.

Last night was the big kicker. I played the old Mark VI again for about 30 minutes. Basic free-improvisation with Michael. I didn’t play very well. I couldn’t play for more than thirty minutes as my lips were too sore. But I had a lot of fun just playing and listening. Just finding sounds I liked and fitting in with Michael’s playing.

It felt good.

So I’m working on some new ideas and I actually have a real desire to finish some pieces and start new ones. I also have a huge desire to just play. I dont’ care what. Just play.

So thanks Mike.

-j

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